Let me start this off a little weird… I have been going through the strangest changes.
They are not the kind of changes where I am like, “Yeah, I’m changing this is amazing!” They are like, “I feel weird, I don’t know what to do with myself and whatever I used to create from and be isn’t there any more.”
In true humanoid fashion, I of course went into that I was wrong in some way. I had made the wrong choice or I had done something wrong.
And amongst all the wrongness and conclusion I was still in the question about that the heck was actually going on.
And then one day as I was laying on my sofa looking out at the ocean it came. I was totally at peace and nothing was wrong! I was so unaccustomed to being totally at peace and not having anything to handle or a fire to put out or a problem to solve with money, or health or relationship that I was totally put off by it. But alas, there I was, with no problems!
I got that I had created so much of my life up until that point from getting out of problem. Getting out of money problems, getting out of health problems, getting out of relationship problems or getting out of being bored.
In brutal honesty, Talk To The Entities came about from needing to solve a money problem. Sure, I could have done any number of things to solve not having money and TTTE was making me money so I kept with it. And the more money I made from it the more it spurred me on to keep going with it.
Then came all the energies and life changes for me and others that TTTE created and then I not only got out of money problems but also was rewarded with all kinds of energies I had not even realized existed, that expanded and nourished my being and life.
Then TTTE grew up and moved out of the house to make its own way in the world and I thought, ‘Oh no, what am I going to do now? TTTE is all grown up and it doesn’t need me anymore. It doesn’t need me to support it all the time.’
Wasn’t that what I had been working towards all these years? TTTE being strong enough to stand up on its own and create in the world without me having to hold it together all the time and make sure it kept growing?
Then it was strong enough and instead of rejoicing at the accomplishment I mourned the change. So fuck that! Thank you TTTE, thank you Access, thank you Gary, thank you TTTE Facilitators and thank you great spirits of the earth. Together we have launched this ship of spirit consciousness and it is sailing fast and smooth.
Not having something hard to work at was not an easy space for me. TTTE and Access had given me myself, immigrated me to Australia, helped me meet and marry the right and good man for me, bought me a BMW and a multi million-dollar home and made me happier then I had ever realized was possible in all the years of being able to realize.
I had defeated and completely surpassed every problem or limitation that ever seemed real to me. I was shot out the other side totally taken care of, totally supported and I was freaking out about it.
As I lay on the sofa looking out to sea amongst this massive revelation, a soft essence became perceptible to me. It was so soft and light I could and had easily dismissed it in favour of more urgent and dense matters. The soft spoke to me in a language I did not understand but I realized this soft had been there with me from the beginning, it had never left me.
It had let me make choices that hurt me and were hard yet it never diminished in its own light and strength.
It was the soft and lightness of creating from true possibility, the opposite of creating out of problems. Creation from no force, no judgment, no effort… simply choice!!
I had heard about this mythical beast of choice for many years. That choice created but I had never actually gotten it until that very moment on the sofa looking out to sea. My life was all about choice now, not the problem life I had been acting out.
This is even a new frontier for me, so I will keep you posted from the frontier as the new world is forged. There is loads of space out here for those that choose!